What is it with the women in my life and their inabillity, or unwillingness, to reply to my communications?
I SMS Lara. Nothing. I SMS my Ex to find out about the money transfer. Nothing.
Maybe T hit the nail on the head the other night. I was bemoaning my loveless relationship with Lara when she said “You know, you look like a man, but sometimes you think like a child”.
A was stunned for a bit, but I know by know that apart from the Chinese being a direct bunch anyway, limited vocabulary sometimes force an even more direct approach. “Are you insulting me?” I asked, because I wanted to know where to file that comment.
I first had to explain the meaning of ‘insult’.
“No,” said S, who was also part of the conversation and tried to give me another male perspective on things “she means you’re lovely and innoncent, like a child”.
Oh, I thought, the word you are looking for is “naive”. Dictionary.com lists several entries for “naive”, mostly negative.
Yes, I guess, sometimes I do think a bit like a child, and thinking about it, I often act like one too. But doesn’t all men? I most certainly do not lack wordly experience or understanding. Perhaps the word she was looking for is “childlike”? To me, same as naive, but with more positive connotations.
Alas, I digress.
T said she means sometimes I think things are really simple, like you could just go from A to B without any hassles. But, she said feeling particularly wise, with Lara it’s not A to B, it’s more like A to G and I have to go through and consider all the points in between.
I think the course of action to take is to stop bemoaning what I don’t have and get what I want and forget what I can’t have. We all know who I’m referring too.
Yes, this Chinese girl that I have entangled my heart with, who is now playing ping-pong with it, and who for the life of me I just can’t walk away from.
Stupid, stupid, naive, childlike boy.