No, but all the troubles and stuff that bogged you down in the last year should.
I woke up this morning, late, after an equally late night, to no hangover. Why? Well, probably because I had the most sedate New Year’s Eve ever had by a foreigner overseas.
I was fully prepared to tell Lara that I cannot continue these on and off emotional games any more, and in fact, in my broken Chinese, that is exactly what I did tell her… wether or not she actually comprehended what I said I do not know, but I think she felt my frustration and those beautiful, dark eyes looked at me and I think there were tears in her eyes.
That, or maybe they were just dry from the aircon which was, as usual, dry and hot.
Nevertheless, Candy and 4 Stones took me for a drive around Shiyan. We spent a good 5 hours pigging out on the all-you-can-eat buffet at The Restaurant, and then in my moment of turmoil, they took me around Shiyan to pass the hour left between the end of our gluttony and midnight.
15 Minutes prior to the turn of the year, I sat down with Uncle W, T and Lara and counted the seconds. On midnight, we popped a modest string of baloons… and then it was 2006.
I walked Lara home… as closely locked together as we had been all of this past month. I thought, stuff it – it’s 2006, new beginings, I will demand a kiss, even one on the cheek, the forehead, the tip of her hand…
So I pulled her closer… she pulled back. I pulled her closer, she pulled back. I said, with a firm, but gentle voice, “let me kiss your cheek”. Eventually after much protesting, she came in closer… and then as my lips touched her cheeck, she fell into my arms and hugged me like child who had been seperated from her mother in a busy shopping centre and was reunited after two hours of dispair.
Obviously, I was confused.
So we stood there, she on the sidewalk, me in the road, embracing for a good 2 minutes. I just appreciated the first human contact, in that way, that I’ve had in 2 months. It was awesome. I kissed her cheek and we hugged some more. Then she whispered “good bye”, broke free, and quickly bounced around the corner and out of sight….
I had to walk back home as there were no damn busses, and it took me a good 90 minutes. I was dead tired as I plopped into bed at 2am.
My new years resolutions:
1. Moan less, laugh more.
2. Hate less, love more.
3. Eat less, do more.
4. Take less, give more.
5. Work hard.
6. Achieve my goals, don’t be distracted.
7. Find who I am, and like him.
Happy New Year. This year… do what you’ve always wanted, but were to scared to try.