Anger, denial, depression, exceptance. Not sure which school of teaching that is from, but aparently those are the 4 stages of human emotion following an event like, ag I dont know, ending divorcing your wife ‘accidentally’, moving back to another country realising you’ve completely f***ked up your life or placing an ad for an unplanned business and not net getting a single reponse to it.
Yes, I’ve been through all the above mentioned plus the stages of human emotion times four and here I am, once again at the door of exceptance. So many things to accept. So now, suddenly life has taken another direction – if you’re looking at my life right now you’d say make up your mind man, what is it that you actually want?
What I want. What do I want? I want to be close to my little boy who is in Malaysia. I want to live outisde South Africa. I want to travel. I want to earn money.
That is what I want. And I am bordering insanity trying to think about how to get it. It is entirely likely that I have stumbled upon a solution, but it seems to good to be true, so I wont say anything as I’ve made myself look like a right plonker plenty of times over the last 8 months. So maybe I will now think through what I am doing a bit better, and plan beter for any eventuality.
My sister is coming over, we’re going for coffee and food. Hmmm, food. The only constant in my life.